My story: (Real)
We had a fight, few days ago through text. And I'm so guilty that time. I feel the anger inside me 'cuz being a man and a lover, you don't want to let her go and in the other side its hard to push yourself/feelings to her. And I almost did. Already happen. She get mad and said... "Just delete my phone number", etc.. etc.. I feel so stupid and thinking "What am I done?"
A very first girl in my life. First crush since elementary in 3rd grade until now. And then thinking... "It might be the end". Shes been right, all the time. "There's a plenty of girls out there in the real world that you can hang with them, talk to them and make love with them.", "We don't know and I don't know if we're really meant together in the future.". These lines tho. Whenever I think of them, I feel being weak and loosing hope.
As the conversation just finish, I made a last text. Saying... "I better need to find my self first". My friend of mine chat me on FB. (Who's also a friend of my crush/girl). They talk about me. She said everything, what happen to us last time.
My friend said, "She's not mad at you.", "She said that, she's sick that time so thats why she said that."
, "She didn't meant to said that "Just delete my phone number.", "Its not the way to finish it up or to avoid you.. She's just worried about you. To those memories.", "Dude, don't fight with yourself. Doing this, you'll feel down and start to think deeper and deeper, loosing control."
My words end up saying "Just said to her... She's always be in my heart. There will be a room for her memories with me".
I can go back and said sorry to her and apologize whenever I wanted. But is it time to do that? What do you think? And for example, you-her, what will you expect?
I NEED SOME HELP!!! I CAN'T FIGHT THIS FEELING ANY LONGER!!! :'(